I'm Not Stalling

This is how you do it

I know, I know. I didn’t post, yesterday. In my defense, I got sidetracked with a dozen other things. I did try to write, but my plans fell through due to technical issues. Instead, I got stuck trying to design a cover for a small bowl-shaped candle-holder. It took me all afternoon, due to the many false starts, trying to design a pattern, from scratch. But, I finally got it done. I’m not in love with it, yet, but now that the rough draft is finished, now I know how to improve it.

But, here I am, writing. Alright. The setting is perfect. My partner is out of the way and the only thing calling to me are internet games, so I had no excuse for not knuckling under and keeping up with this commitment.

Not bad for a Monday. I hate Mondays. But, I managed to do everything that I planned to do, today. Some of the problems that I was expecting turned out to be minor, thankfully. Due to those problems being more minimal than expected, I actually had the time I needed to take care of a few others things that I had been putting off. All in all, I got a whole lot done, today, and I’m pretty proud of the effort.

On top of it being a Monday, it was also a rainy day, today, so I didn’t get to sport the cool, new hat that I discovered in a bag of recycled clothing. I opted for a baseball cap, instead. But, I still looked sharp, so I guess I can’t really complain. I even managed to miss the rain on the way into and on the way home from work, so, technically, I could have worn the cool, new hat, but I didn’t want to chance it.

It is kind of a bummer that it’s so cold in the middle of May. This is the time of year that I really look forward to breaking out my cool leggings and awesome t-shirts, and even more awesome hats. I even did my locs up in a cool, wavy style (another reason that I’m glad that I was able to avoid the rain. Can’t let Mother Nature ruin my awesome hair style). Thankfully, there are three more months in which to show off my style before I have to go back to sweaters, turtlenecks and snow boots.

On the upside, rain and clouds means no flying insects, in particular, no bees or wasps to run from. I haven’t been stung, in years, but I’m not trying to mess around, either. I do not like stinging insects, no matter how good they are for the environment. I absolutely appreciate that we need the bees to pollinate our plants, but I wish that they were not also so attracted to me.

Only 200 plus words to go before I can claim to be done writing for today. I’m sitting here trying to think of the most innocuous things that I can drone on about (want to save the good stuff for its very own post). I have an old dog. A beagle. He’s a million years old and you can see it, but he’s still not far from being the cute adorable pup that he once was. When he passes, we probably won’t replace him. The truth is, that as much as he is part of our family, we probably had no business getting a dog and when his time comes, my family will face the fact that we will have more room in our apartment (we adopted him when my family lived in a house) and the expense of caring for him will go back into caring for the human members of our family. He will be missed, though. I just don’t want to be one of those families that goes about adopting an animal, that we can’t afford, in order to replace a pet because we consider him “family”. Family members die all of the time. you can’t replace Uncle Phil, so we won’t be replacing Fido, either.

I’m almost at the end at what should be a daily screed. Hopefully, in the future, I’ll actually have a real, bona-fide topic to discuss. But, for now, y’all will have to settle for this drivel. I promise things will get more interesting. I’m just trying to make sure that I get into regular habit, first before I commit to writing anything really serious.

Time to log off for dinner.

Writer's Block: Do it anyway!

Keep Calm and Write Something!

Here is the first in a long line of post regarding the topic of writer’s block and the annoying propensity of sufferers to endlessly write about said blockage. I plan to keep harping on the topic until my lizard brain finally gets excited enough to write about something, anything, else.

I’m calling it the “Do It Anyway” project. It’s a challenge to myself to write daily, whether I want to or not, whether I have anything important to say or not.

I am blocked because I practice self-censorship, due to trolls and online stalkers. I can’t say what I really want, when I really want to. I have so much to say, but not quite ready to say it. One of the goals of the “Do It Anyway” project is to keep writing until I don’t feel the need to censor myself, any longer.

I am blocked because I can’t write whenever the mood strikes me. Having a 9 to 5, means that the best I can hope for is that I will remember and/ or still be motivated to write about, this afternoon, the topic that got me excited, this morning. I have several piles of sticky notes with memos I wrote to myself, but by the time I get the time to write about this topic or that issue, my give a damn is busted and my writing mojo opts out for a nap, instead. Another goal of the “Do It Anyway” project is to keep writing until new topics come to me when I have time to write, not just when I think about thinking about writing.

I’m blocked because I have so many interests and I don’t really know where to start or what to let go of. I want to write about all the things. I want to write about politics. I want to write about relationships; marriage, family, polyamory, divorce, dating. I want to write about my work; my up days, my bad days, my coworkers, my experiences. I want to write about music and art and poetry. i want to share memes and stories that I find interesting. I want to explore ideas and express my truth. I want to share ideas of others and I want to share experiences with others. I want to talk about my new business and I want to talk about my fears about running my own business (for the 5th time in 45 years). I want to talk about learning and teaching and repeating history and learning from history. I want to talk about stupid people and evil people and people I love and the mysteries of what humans do.

I’m blocked because my gadgets tend to revolt against me. I can’t blog on my devices because they either take forever to enter data, crash while I’m in the middle of my work, or some of the keys don’t always work on my keyboard, but using the on-screen touchpad is cumbersome and downright annoying.

I’m blocked because I don’t have the privacy to write when I do have the time. I can’t seem to write when there is an apparent audience in proximity to my writing space and I don’t have an unlimited set of spaces to work in. There’s only one and when I’m not alone, it feels like I can’t express myself, sincerely. In fact, I couldn’t get motivated to even write this post until I got some alone time and that was just a fluke; I wasn’t expecting to get any Quiet time, today.

I’m blocked because I’m afraid that I’m not good enough. I want people to like my writing. I want people to like me. I want people to like and buy my crafts when I begin posting them on this site.

I’m blocked because My goal is to write 750 words, but I’m running out of things to say. There are so many ways one can write and whine and complain about not being able to write and having writer’s block while simultaneously, and in actuality, writing about not being able to write.

Maybe, just maybe I can annoy enough people with my boring blogging that the boring blog will bring people out to see what the hell I’m not writing about, today. That would be interesting to see, how many hits could a boring blog get if a boring blog could get hits (My apologies to the woodchuck).

I’ve almost reached the end and earned myself a bag of chili-nut M&M’s.

Hello. It's Me…

With all due respect to Adele…

I’m making my comeback into the blogosphere. But, rather than personal, I’m doing this for purely capitalistic reasons. I’m expecting my craft business to be up and running, this summer and I figured that I should make my presence more apparent before I just jumped back in.

If you’ve followed me, in the past, you know that I will keep this blog classy, but I will also speak my mind, boldly and brashly, if I feel like it. This blog will be filled with my unsolicited opinions about my personal life, the world we live in, politics, and, of course, my hand-made crafts.

I will do my best to not be totally offensive, but I cannot promise that you may not sometimes be offended.

Your comments are always welcome. Please be respectful.

Make it a great day!

Hello! It's Me!